Should i move out from this dormitory or stay?

[needy]

I have been living in a dormitory (it’s called YMCA) over a year now and I’m doing degree in a university which is close by. Our dormitory has two apartments one is for men and women both and the other is for Men only and this is where I live. Our dormitory has social interaction between the people who are in same color or race. Since I’m the only colored person here things are bit tough. Especially, when it comes to the girls. Because some white folks here (means in the YMCA building) doesn’t like a colored person having a relationship with a woman because one reason is that YMCA has rules for the boys hostel to not to bring girls specially after hours and in the mixed building well white folks (these are people who are in my age) sabotage the conversation so I don’t stay in that building unless some thing really matters specially if I want to watch TV(Only in the mixed building has a TVs). How ever Since I have been in this YMCA over 12 months now I sort of getting “Not Social” mood. Just like to long term residence in this YMCA I’m getting bored/ depressed and un-social.
The reasons why I stay in this YMCA because my university is 10mins away and it’s 5min walking distance from the city center so every thing is close by.

However the only place I have enjoyed and have human interactions in where I work as a janitor. And I communicate with my fellow work mates really well. The place where I work is about 20mins away from the bus and it’s in a nice peaceful suburb where crime is really low there’s always community patrol vehicles moving at night has a really good neighborhood watch dog program. The university where I study has a a lot of competitions some competitions are for get a good job and some competitions are because some believe they are better than the colored people so do all sorts of things including isolations, laughing out loud for mistakes and not knowing about something is considered as a weakness. Therefore I got no friends at university except for competitors but most the tutors and the lecturers have been helpful to me. They are GREATE I could easily talk with and even adjust the courses to the way I want. Therefore I have no friends. The people who know about me is the ones who are at my work place. But recently the person who knows me quit. Therefore I have to find a new friend like that which will be another interesting thing to do.

However….. this year is very important for me for my academics. Because I have to run to my maximum potential in order to get a job to get work experience in the software industry and I have bit over 6months to do it. Therefore I need to have fewer disturbances as much as possible. Since the life in YMCA is pretty much isolated it’s IDEAL till I complete my studies but I’m afraid that I will go nuts because I need to improve my communication skills in order to deal with customers as a developer (which is the job I’m aiming for). But since there are no social interactions within the YMCA I’m sort of feeling out of touch with human beings. And recently a person who lives in YMCA saw me working as a Janitor and I have doubt that he took pictures of me wearing the uniform and show it to the people at YMCA. It clear that this person was trying to sabotage my reputations. The older people in YMCA knows that I work as a Janitor because they see the company vehicle comes to pick me up every night. However…. Since recently I have this feeling that some one is trying to break into my room and steel valuables from it such as computers, stereos, travel documents and passport. Because there is a person who I hate the most who is a stalker moved in to the next room. We were living here last years but he had to move out because he got humiliated by some group of guys beucase he tried to be the man in the hood. And I laughed. Before he leave the dorm he made a threaten to me that he’s going move into every place I move in and going to make my life insecured and hell. Therefore after he moved back in to the dorm couple of months ago i have started to get dodgy feeling and I’m a bit paranoid about weather the doors are properly locked I tend to check 5-6 times before I leave any where. Because I have this doubt if he break into my room he might steel all the valuables to make my life hell. Basically you can consider him as a stalker.and I cant go to the police because I have no witnesses to prove what he said and done to me, therefore no case!


And believe it he and I study at the same university therefore I believe that, it in away related to studies as well.

“I’m writing a long description because I want to give the readers a clear understanding of the situation.(I Hope!)”

Because of this paranoia, since recently I’m lacking of studying and doing assignments and there’s a test in two days and I haven’t touched a book this is because I spend more time on checking security in my room than doing anything else.

Therefore should I move out from YMCA to a live in the actual community?
I thought about moving out but what repelled me is the cheap accommodation in YMCA and having NO friends. Because if I move in to a house in the real community and they realize that I don’t have friends I thought that they (the house mates) could do harmful things for me e.g.- steel my stuff and claim them as if were theirs or humiliate me for not having friends and think of me as a loser or play psychological games with me.

Now the reason I have is not to move out because of that stalker. Because he said that he’s going to move in to every suburb I move in, therefore I move in to the most beautiful and the most safest suburb what if the stalkers moves in there as well? Therefore should I stay in YMCA?

If I move out from YMCA, will this stalker win this battle because I think his main purpose is to harm me and my studies so I fail exams so he can graduate before me?

I really love to move in to the suburb where I work because its really nice and it’s living cost is quite similar to YMCA’s But I have seconds thoughts about it because of this bloody stalker.

What should I do? Should I move out from YMCA or should I stay?
Could moving out from YMCA help me to improve my studies and keep my home work up to date?

Please help!
God Bless!

Here are my expenses in the YMCA –
- Rent $100 a week
- I don’t have to pay electricity, gas or water because it covered in the rent
- Linen is change once a week by room service without any extra cost.
- Room is fully furnished includes a study table chair, bed pillows mattress closet,
cupboard.
- For traveling zero dollars because everything including the university is in walking
distance.

[Corporate Avenger]

sure.

[SudruhEsO]

well i'd beat few people senseless, make a great 'drink yourself into sobrierty' party and then just left the dorm with a stretched middle finger.