What is it like to be you?

[CCC]

What is it like to be you?

[Sykko]

it's ok I guess... full of ego and insecurities... I know that I am the best at everything I do but I wonder if anyone understands the way I do things and if they think i have too much of an ego especially for an ugly fat guy ha ha ha ha ha ha ha... oh and I am drunk alot....

how about you CCC?

[CCC]

Originally Posted by Sykko

how about you CCC?

It's been a predominately lonely life and I've had much depression. Fractured family upbringing, no siblings to fight or bond with. But I've done allright. Having a church family and working on a relationship with God has helped out where I have been lacking in a biological family. Generally considered well-grounded by many; not understood by others who lack understanding. Wish women found me attractive, having a heart longing for love and having nobody to receive it, so that is frustrating. Passion for music and some arts. Love my cats. Free of chemical dependencies. I tend to dwell and not be prone to rash decisions and comments, and that's kept me out of unwelcomed situations I see other people going through. I have my zany humorous moments, but I balance it pretty well with serious contemplativeness, so I'm not too boring or spaztic or irritating (I hope). Maybe a little predictable, but hopefully that's a result of being consistent with my values...

Maybe I'll add more later if I get more thoughts on the matter.

[Sykko]

wow... that's a good description... I shoulda posted something better... more specific...

[Haddaway]

I am very shy when you first meet me. I can get out of control at times. I like to have fun. Even though I know when it is time to get serious. I never tried in school. I still had a 4.0. I had a lonely life. My dad hit me. My mom said she hated me. I got used to it. I had to grow a layer of tough skin. I learned I couldn't complain about my problems because people aren't going to be compassionate all the time. That I had to deal with it on my own. I have never asked a girl out in my life. The only times I go out with girls are when they ask me out. Which happens not often. Maybe once every 3 weeks. I just broke up with my girlfriend a few weeks ago. She was too dumb for me. She just didn't ever think things through and I could never talk to her or she would get too defensive. I enjoy being alone of occasion. I can get very lonely also. I had an issue with suicide in my younger years. (13-17) I grew out of that and I am better for it. I appreciate things more. I put a lot of weight on what people think about me. I don't know why.

That's all I guess.

[Haddaway]

Also, I don't drink alchohol and I have never smoked a ciggarette. I dispise these things. I have one brother that is a drunk and works at Burger King. He is a crude person and he takes no advice. So now I don't talk to him.

[Malcolm Wright]

Its a big adventure, punctuated with returns to the 'real world' during which I lay the groundwork for the next big adventure... Sorry, no specifics.

[CCC]

Originally Posted by Haddaway

I am very shy when you first meet me.

I'm shy too. Perhaps it's a defense mechanism. There are a lot of goofy people out there.

And while I haven't been able to win over a wife, I'm thankful I haven't had to go through messy divorces or other kinds of abusive relationships like I've seen all too often.

With me, I'm pretty much "no strings attached." I don't think my future-wife would ever have to worry about mother-in-law problems either.

Also, I don't drink alchohol and I have never smoked a ciggarette.

I've also never smoked a cigarette and I refrain from alcohol. I would never marry a smoker. I had enough problems dealing with my grandparents who both smoked.

[Haddaway]

Originally Posted by CCC

I'm shy too. Perhaps it's a defense mechanism. There are a lot of goofy people out there.

And while I haven't been able to win over a wife, I'm thankful I haven't had to go through messy divorces or other kinds of abusive relationships like I've seen all too often.

With me, I'm pretty much "no strings attached." I don't think my future-wife would ever have to worry about mother-in-law problems either.

Yeah I think you will find a women that you will have a happy life with soon enough. You seem like a cool guy and there are a lot of women that would love you.

I've also never smoked a cigarette and I refrain from alcohol. I would never marry a smoker. I had enough problems dealing with my grandparents who both smoked.

Yeah me either. I hate the breath and just the addictive personality.

[Sykko]

ok here's my rewrite...

I get up every morning to take a 5 mile bike ride to my job... when I get there I start my day doing my normal boring paperwork. then I spend alot of time programming and designing database applications or reports based on those applications. my boss hates his job but happens to be one of the best bosses ive ever had... he dissapoints me though and I just hope the department will be the same without him... everyday I get off work I buy a 12pack of beer and go home to a smelly house with too many cats (they are the reason it is smelly) on the bus. I take care of my mother who is disabled with PTSD and Agorophobia and a few other mental disorders as well as various physical issues. I pay the rent with my money but I make plenty enough at my job so that I can afford to pay with just one paycheck. by the time I take care of her 12 cats and her emotional issues for the day I am worn out and spend the rest of my night drinking the 12 pack I bought and being online either in a chat or a forum... usually at about 8pm I start watching tv... and I pass out some time before midnight and do it all again the next day... my past is one I dont dwell on it has shaped who I am but is not worth thinking about. when the weekends come I dont clean like I should because I am fed up with the amount of work that I have to put in with everything else... and I am constantly trying to figure out how to get rid of at least half a dozen of the cats in my apartment...

that's what it's like to be me...

[Haddaway]

Your life seems confusing and hectic. I like calm. I wouldn't be able to handle that.

[Sykko]

eh... it's not so bad plus I kinda like a lil pressure in my life

[Ice Pick]

Super!

Interested in Astronomy since four and ever since. Stargazing for over ten years now. I'm shy in some cases but not really like that on here.

I can't real add on beyond that right now.

[Haddaway]

I love Astronomy, too! Well I like almost all sciences.. Except those having to do with cells. I hate that!

[Ice Pick]

Biology stuff? It's alright, I guess.

[Sykko]

Im more of a fan of signals and electricity and some other physical sciences

[Haddaway]

I had a Double-Major in Cosmology and Chemistry.

[flaming_liberal]

A life of constant fear of yourself because you never know what you might do next or if you will have any control. It has its ups and downs. It's sometimes lonely, but other times it's magical. There is never an absolute high point, but there is also never an absolute low point. In short, it's a life in which there is only one goal and one dream--normalcy. And it is unattainable.

[Sykko]

Originally Posted by Haddaway

I had a Double-Major in Cosmology and Chemistry.

wow nice combo!

I plan to finally go back to school either this year or next... depending on when my company starts payin for part of it

I havent decided on business or communications yet

[Haddaway]

Yeah, that is cool. I'll send you 50k if you need it!