...almost ready for bed, I suppose...

...but my mind is still.....footballing these things over..

It was 17 years ago to-day, that I and my Dad said our good-byes to each other, as he...my last living relative on earth....was dying..

Terminal cancer.



It was one year ago to-day, that *I* was in The States hospitalised in Intensive Care...for a near-fatal gunshot attack, diabetes, and pnuemonia....all but dying..........


To-day (2012), I am still dying...

Inside, I am dying..



I still miss her so much.

It's abit over 5 months....

And so I sit here .. Questioning...


Wondering, seriously, really, wondering..

what's going to happen to me next?

Is this soon to be the end?

Questioning....