So, I have my first official babysitting (BY MYSELF) job on August 11th, for a nine year old girl and a five year old boy. :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: I'm excited. :D

Then on August 20th, I'm going to Alabama for a couple days with Ama and a friend of hers that can sing REALLY well--we're taking her to the American Idol Try-outs. :eek: :woohoo: Ama and I could end up being those people you see screaming because their friend made it through. :D

Over the past several days, I've been in one of my moods, though. :hmm: I guess I've been a little extra upset too....after almost two years of having these periods of time where I'm super-sad for no reason, I have a really hard time consentrating, having a hard time sleeping and getting pissed off really easily, I was finally going to talk to my mom about it. If it's a medical thing and this can be FIXED, if it's just as simple as taking medicine or something, I want it. Not being like this any more would change my life so drastically...all for the better, I'm sure.

And I DID bring it up to her. It was really late at night and Jess was over, though, so she said we'd talk about it more the next day. Well, she was REALLY stressed out the next day (and the day after that), so she forgot to bring it up and I had lost my nerve. It hasn't come back since. :hmm:

>_<

Congrats on the babysitting job! :w00t: Hoping all goes smoothly for you.

What is your Ama's friend going to sing at the audition? I'll tell you what - I've never seen American Idol, but if she actually gets on national TV I'll tune in for her, how's that!? :D

And please, do tell your mom about any and all changes you are going through. You have been through a lot lately! Your mom is your biggest ally and best friend. Trust me on this.

(P.S. I still owe you a PM, but have been going crazy with work and stuff lately. Seems the easiest way to get a hold of me these days is AIM, so don't hesitate to look for me there! :) )

Thanks NB. :)

I have no clue what she's going to sing--in fact, I'm not sure if I've even met this woman (I might have ran into her at B&N, but I don't know). :eek: I'll have plenty of time to get to know her on the trip down, though!! :D

I think I'm going to try to talk to my mom again tonight, depending on how today goes.

Oh...OH OH OH! Something else going on....my uncle Ray is coming into town tonight!!! :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohooo: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana:

I think that seeing him might help me mellow out. ^_^ It's going to be a short visit (he's leaving Sunday afternoon), but a visit is a visit, right? :D :D :D

Good news, indeed! :nice:

It may be a short visit, but better than none. (Like you really needed me to tell you that! :rolleyes: ) It's all about quality not quantity (in this case, length of time), so make the most of it! :cool: (Yeah, I know...you didn't need me to tell you that either! ;) )

If I was u spaz, Id wait a long while before taking medicin for a mood. wait untill youre 18 or something like that. youre still developing, and its drugs.
well thats my opinion, I dont like those mind drugs very much. at your age you have so much options left for you that might change you in a positive way. its important to work on that right now. lots of people end up later in life regretting they didnt try things at your age. I know its scary and hard, especially at your age, but its worth it. if you lean now to fix yourself, its something you will keep doing lateron, and it will be easyer.

oh, and :w00t: babysitting!

If I was u spaz, Id wait a long while before taking medicin for a mood. wait untill youre 18 or something like that. youre still developing, and its drugs.
well thats my opinion, I dont like those mind drugs very much. at your age you have so much options left for you that might change you in a positive way. its important to work on that right now. lots of people end up later in life regretting they didnt try things at your age. I know its scary and hard, especially at your age, but its worth it. if you lean now to fix yourself, its something you will keep doing lateron, and it will be easyer.

I won't take medication unless my doctor thinks it will help. I'm not pill-happy or anything. :p

I HAVE tried to fix myself...many many many times. But after two YEARS of this affecting my schoolwork and social life, I'm really getting sick of it. :hmm: :P

Thanks NB. :)

I have no clue what she's going to sing--in fact, I'm not sure if I've even met this woman (I might have ran into her at B&N, but I don't know). :eek: I'll have plenty of time to get to know her on the trip down, though!! :D

I think I'm going to try to talk to my mom again tonight, depending on how today goes.

Oh...OH OH OH! Something else going on....my uncle Ray is coming into town tonight!!! :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohooo: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana:

I think that seeing him might help me mellow out. ^_^ It's going to be a short visit (he's leaving Sunday afternoon), but a visit is a visit, right? :D :D :D




Spaz, :w00t: on the babysitting, I loved it when I was your age. You will have a great time. Have fun,,,
As for your mom, I hope you get the courage back up to talk to her, Your mom loves you and sometimes we get caught up in our own world, we sometimes unintetionaly forget about the important things to the ones we love lives. For your own self, bring it up, the longer you wait, the more you will think you can handle it.
I understand about the pill thing, I dont like pills, but if that is what it takes, its okay. Keep up the good spirit and I like American Idol, keep us posted if she makes it.. :)

St John's Wort,Lass-maybe even just the Tea-Oki's right,they medicated me when I was Ema's age,it's no good..

A.W, I'll definetly let you all know if she makes it. :nice:

So I tried to get on the subject with my mom....I thought it would be fairly easy to get started on, since I had already brought it up and she said that we'd talk about it more. But she kinda blew me off....so, yeah. >.<

**** that. I'm not doing this again. It took ALL day today to work up the guts to say something....I'm not going to keep stressing myself out if it's not going to fix anything.

she needs to understand how serious you think it is. Start the convo up with something like, "mom, I'm really worried about the way I've been feeling recently. It's hard for me to study and I've been so depressed it's making me ill. I think something might be really wrong and I'm scared. *pitiful look* :("

I won't take medication unless my doctor thinks it will help. I'm not pill-happy or anything. :p

I HAVE tried to fix myself...many many many times. But after two YEARS of this affecting my schoolwork and social life, I'm really getting sick of it. :hmm: :P I felt terrible when I was a little older then you are now, but Im a guy and girls are faster with these things. but okay cant hurt to talk to a doctor about it, you should. the thing is really, the little brother of one of my friends is on medication now, hes 18. he allso has a lot of problems with concentrating and beeing happy. but I really dont like what these drugs do to him. but at least hes 18. dontforget you have a mom thats ignoring you, and other stuff that is pretty depressing. its natural to feel bad about these things. and yorue at an age when you start to find out more and more that it takes a lot of work to make life go well for you. give it some time, talk to someone, and try to fix as much as you can. even if it doesnt work, it will be worth trying and youll learn a lot. learning to defeat your fear is really important.

Yays For Babysitting! Woot!

Yays? Hi Bobert!:welcome: :)