I can't stop crying, and it's pissing me off. I am NOT a cryer. :mad:


And I shouldn't be upset, because I've known this for so long. But someone else saying it and believing it just makes it so much more.....real. There's always that hope in the back of my head when I know something like this--that hope that I'm wrong. My mom wouldn't have been better off if she'd gotten rid of me. She needed me when I came. But when someone ELSE says it--very matter-o-factly, I might add--there's no more denying it. There's no more pretending, like I did when I was a little kid; back in those days, I could close my eyes and become someone completely different--in an instant, I could temporarily become whoever or whatever I wanted to be.

I still get together with Jess and play games like I did when I was a little girl--only with more realistic surcimstances. I can't wait until she comes over tonight, so that I can preform this ritual of becoming someone I want so badly to be--not a mistake. Someone who was ment to be here. Someone who was wanted when she came. Someone who didn't destroy someone else's life, simply by existing.

Archemides discovered displacement by taking a bath.

Newton figured out gravity by eating lunch.

Silly putty was an accident too. It was designed to be an adhesive.

Lots of great things came from accidents.

I can't stop crying, and it's pissing me off. I am NOT a cryer. :mad:


And I shouldn't be upset, because I've known this for so long.
But someone else saying it and believing it just makes it so much more.....real.
There's always that hope in the back of my head when I know something like this--
that hope that I'm wrong.
My mom wouldn't have been better off if she'd gotten rid of me.
She needed me when I came.
But when someone ELSE says it--
very matter-o-factly, I might add--
there's no more denying it. There's no more pretending,
like I did when I was a little kid; back in those days,
I could close my eyes and become someone completely different--in an instant,
I could temporarily become whoever or whatever I wanted to be.

I still get together with Jess and play games like I did when I was a little girl--only with more realistic surcimstances.
I can't wait until she comes over tonight,
so that I can preform this ritual of becoming someone I want so badly to be--
not a mistake.
Someone who was ment to be here.
Someone who was wanted when she came.
Someone who didn't destroy someone else's life, simply by existing.

OK, got the lyrics

Archemides discovered displacement by taking a bath.

Newton figured out gravity by eating lunch.

Silly putty was an accident too. It was designed to be an adhesive.

Lots of great things came from accidents.
A human mistake is a lot different from silly putty, though. :hmm:


But you're being very sweet. Thank you. :) <3
OK, got the lyrics
I actually started to write a poem similar to that (because of what you said), but then my friend got here and I close the page without even thinking. :(

If you think you're a mistake, there's still time for you to at least help fix part of the problem.

If you think you're a mistake, there's still time for you to at least help fix part of the problem.
What part?

You know a lot of the little girls I work with say their babies give them a reason to live and keep going-I won't say this isn't a little disfunctional in a way-but a life is a life whether it's planned or not-I wasnt planned,my folks had to get married.
You're a special person,Spaz.

babies bring joy

you wouldn't get that from reading my sig but its true. :)

Y'know, philosophers used to argue a lot about the meaning of life. One school of thought says that all life is basically an accident, that there's nobody who intended it to happen, but that each person's life is given meaning by what they themselves choose to do. Applying that theory to a specific life instead of to life in general, then, it doesn't matter whether anyone was "wanted" or "an accident" or anything else. What's done is done, and what matters is what you do with going forward. What can you do, now, or what can you avoid doing, to produce an outcome that is positive?

Sorry, but I just had to say that. I don't know you, I don't know exactly what you're talking about, and I'm a noob here so maybe my opinion counts even less than the nothing it would anyway, but it's just a question that's always worth asking. Keep asking it, every day, and you might be surprised by what happens.

Actually PG-it was a sound observation.

I can't stop crying, and it's pissing me off. I am NOT a cryer. :mad:


And I shouldn't be upset, because I've known this for so long. But someone else saying it and believing it just makes it so much more.....real. There's always that hope in the back of my head when I know something like this--that hope that I'm wrong. My mom wouldn't have been better off if she'd gotten rid of me. She needed me when I came. But when someone ELSE says it--very matter-o-factly, I might add--there's no more denying it. There's no more pretending, like I did when I was a little kid; back in those days, I could close my eyes and become someone completely different--in an instant, I could temporarily become whoever or whatever I wanted to be.

I still get together with Jess and play games like I did when I was a little girl--only with more realistic surcimstances. I can't wait until she comes over tonight, so that I can preform this ritual of becoming someone I want so badly to be--not a mistake. Someone who was ment to be here. Someone who was wanted when she came. Someone who didn't destroy someone else's life, simply by existing.


I was ana ccident, and I would bet that 75% of the people on this planet weren't "planned".

Don't beat yourself up for something you had nothing to do with, and no control over. You're here for a reason, and one day you'll figure out what that reason is. You haven't ruined anyone's life either. If someone has told you such a thing, well, they should be ashamed of themselves.

Every life is precious, and don't believe anyone who tells you differently. Lots of lives go wrong, and people may grow up and do horrible things, but the life itself, and the potential is a miracle from the start, and so are you. Don't ever forget it, and ignore anyone who isn't intelligent enough to realize something so obvious. They're not telling you the truth.

I don't believe in coincidence, and as far as I'm concerned, you, and everyone else are meant to be here, at the exact time that they arrive. When you have kids of your own one day, your whole outlook on life will change in an instant, and you'll understand what I mean.

We live in a society that has cheapened life tremendously, but just because some people believe this way doesn't mean it's true. Instead of focusing on the idea destroying someone's life by being here, just think how you'll help and improve people's others lives as time goes on. You'll see.

Sometimes familiy members can be cruel, because they can get away with it. That's why people hurt the ones they love.

Good friends are God's way of apologizing for your relatives!! You can't pick your family, but you can pick your friends, and that can make all of the difference in the long run.