Spazola
01-30-2006, 05:41 PM
Jess, my only friend IRL, can't talk to me. She got busted not doing her homework (by failing Social Studies), and until she gets her grades up is grounded from the internet, phone, and over-nights. Because of this, I'm begining to realize how little contact with the outside world I have; I don't play outside because I'm afraid of Truck Dude, and since Jess is grounded, I don't really leave the house. Sure, every now and then I get my lazy ass up and go to the store with my mom, but that's about it. The weird thing is, it doesn't bother me (aside from me thinking it's strange, anyway). I'd rather stay in the house than go out somewhere with Jess, or even go to her house, especially recently. Even before she was grounded, I didn't want to go to her house. I love Jess to death, and wanted to be with her and all, but I wanted her to come here. A lot of it is clingyness to my Mom, which I don't quite understand. It's not like I've been seperated from her for a long time, or anything.
Another thing that happened last night; I finally returned my cell phone and got a new one a few days ago. I had a little bit of spare money, so I bought a ringtone for it off of the internet. It worked, and they sent the ringtone to my phone; problem is, I screwed up and hit "exit" instead of "load" like I was supposed to. My mom figured that we should call the company to see if we could fix it, which I agreed with--only she wanted ME to call. Now, I can't talk to strangers on the phone; I freak out, and half the time end up hanging up because I feel sick. So when she wanted me to call and get talked through fixing my phone, I flipped out. I couldn't help it; I started crying, without making any noise so my mom didn't know at first. Eventually she and my Dad got pissed that I was so upset, and he started yelling at me (which only made it worse). He decided that, rather than truly feeling too uncomfortable with strangers to call, I was throwing a fit because I didn't feel like doing it. Eventually, though, my mom called and got everything fixed.
I don't know what my deal is, but I simply cannot talk to strangers. Yeah, sometimes I can call somewhere and ask a quick question without TOTALLY freaking out, but I have to be swift.
*sigh* [standard teenager] Parents just don't understand. [/standard teenager]
Another thing that happened last night; I finally returned my cell phone and got a new one a few days ago. I had a little bit of spare money, so I bought a ringtone for it off of the internet. It worked, and they sent the ringtone to my phone; problem is, I screwed up and hit "exit" instead of "load" like I was supposed to. My mom figured that we should call the company to see if we could fix it, which I agreed with--only she wanted ME to call. Now, I can't talk to strangers on the phone; I freak out, and half the time end up hanging up because I feel sick. So when she wanted me to call and get talked through fixing my phone, I flipped out. I couldn't help it; I started crying, without making any noise so my mom didn't know at first. Eventually she and my Dad got pissed that I was so upset, and he started yelling at me (which only made it worse). He decided that, rather than truly feeling too uncomfortable with strangers to call, I was throwing a fit because I didn't feel like doing it. Eventually, though, my mom called and got everything fixed.
I don't know what my deal is, but I simply cannot talk to strangers. Yeah, sometimes I can call somewhere and ask a quick question without TOTALLY freaking out, but I have to be swift.
*sigh* [standard teenager] Parents just don't understand. [/standard teenager]