lily
01-27-2006, 07:13 PM
WOW! :D This has been an amazing last few days. Last week was really rough for me, because the deadline for my school fees for this quarter was yesterday, and I didn't have all the money. (The fees include everything in one payment - tuition, room& board, food, insurance, etc) I wasn't the only one who was short, there were other people in our class who were also, and as of yesterday, there were 5 or 6 of us left that still didn't have the funds.
A couple days ago I planned a fundraiser for those of us who still needed money, and I had a busy, crazy day, running around trying to put this fundraiser together at the last minute, but we raised close to $600 in just a few hours. (we went to Costco and bought pies, ice cream, candy, rootbeer, and plus they donated to us a TON of bakery stuff, pastries, a cake, bagels, bread, etc.. that they were going to give away anyway) So the $600 we made, divided by 6 was $100 each, which was something but not enough...as of yesterday, after the fundraiser, and after I received 2 or 3 donations, I was still short about 1400 dollars.
So even though I went through this before (with my missions trip in Fall of 04) and I saw then how God provides in amazing ways, I was still stressed, and had doubts that I'd get the money, and even wondered if I was meant to do this second quarter. (originally I felt that I was supposed to do at least the first 2 quarters, if not the whole 9 months) So my trust was not complete, and I was stressed.. I had a really bad few days. :hmm: But it didn't have to be that way, I didn't have to worry, if I would've just had faith from the start, i would've saved myself all that worry and heartache, which was for nothing.
Everyone always says here, that if God calls you to do something, then even if you don't have the money, it's no problem, the money will come. I realize that from a non-Christian or worldly perspective, that is silly and unrealistic. But believe me when I say, it is so true, I've seen it with my own eyes again and again, and it happens all the time here - people who didn't have any money for their missions trip, or class...and the money coming in.... there are so many stories, amazing stories.
So anyway, I was stressing yesterday, and it was a dreary grey day.... then things started to change yesterday evening. The sunset last night was so spectacular and gorgeous, it looked like heaven, and we had our Thursday night meeting, and it was awesome, (sorry for the nonbelievers but I gotta say this) you could really feel God's presence there, and the words spoken were so perfect, and even though I still didn't have the money, I had a good night, and I got prayed for.... then after the meeting my roommates and I went to the prayer room and prayed some more, they prayed for me, and although the last few days I had been having doubts about the provision, I decided to just surrender all those doubts and just choose to believe that God would provide, and if I wasn't supposed to be here, that it would be because there was something better planned for me around the corner... So I felt like I needed to say that outloud, so I said I choose to trust, no matter what. (instead of being half-half about it and doubtful)
Then a few minutes later, a couple guys from our class came running in to the prayer room, and one of them said, "Guess what? I've got good news. I got my funds, you got yours, everyone who was still short got all their money!" An anonymous person gave the amount owed for the 5 or 6 students who didn't have their money, and I'm not sure what the total amount was..... the other day it was $7800, but last night I think it was about 5-6 thousand dollars. (my part was around 1400 bucks) Praise God! :w00t: :D :) :cool: Things like this happen ALL THE TIME here, and it has happened to me before, yet I still had doubts, but what a waste of time the worrying and doubts were. What everyone said was true, if God wants you to do something, then even if you don't have the money, it's not an issue, because money is nothing to God.
So that's my lesson in trust, and so I'm excited... cause even though I don't have any money for next quarter (the final 3 months of this class) I know that if i'm supposed to continue on, that somehow it'll come!
The other day at our fundraiser, with all the money in the box, we found a little piece of paper with a scripture on it, that someone had put in. This is what is said...
He will feed his flock like a shepherd.
He will carry the lambs in his arms,
holding them close to his heart.
~ Isaiah 40:11
Thanks for reading! :)
A couple days ago I planned a fundraiser for those of us who still needed money, and I had a busy, crazy day, running around trying to put this fundraiser together at the last minute, but we raised close to $600 in just a few hours. (we went to Costco and bought pies, ice cream, candy, rootbeer, and plus they donated to us a TON of bakery stuff, pastries, a cake, bagels, bread, etc.. that they were going to give away anyway) So the $600 we made, divided by 6 was $100 each, which was something but not enough...as of yesterday, after the fundraiser, and after I received 2 or 3 donations, I was still short about 1400 dollars.
So even though I went through this before (with my missions trip in Fall of 04) and I saw then how God provides in amazing ways, I was still stressed, and had doubts that I'd get the money, and even wondered if I was meant to do this second quarter. (originally I felt that I was supposed to do at least the first 2 quarters, if not the whole 9 months) So my trust was not complete, and I was stressed.. I had a really bad few days. :hmm: But it didn't have to be that way, I didn't have to worry, if I would've just had faith from the start, i would've saved myself all that worry and heartache, which was for nothing.
Everyone always says here, that if God calls you to do something, then even if you don't have the money, it's no problem, the money will come. I realize that from a non-Christian or worldly perspective, that is silly and unrealistic. But believe me when I say, it is so true, I've seen it with my own eyes again and again, and it happens all the time here - people who didn't have any money for their missions trip, or class...and the money coming in.... there are so many stories, amazing stories.
So anyway, I was stressing yesterday, and it was a dreary grey day.... then things started to change yesterday evening. The sunset last night was so spectacular and gorgeous, it looked like heaven, and we had our Thursday night meeting, and it was awesome, (sorry for the nonbelievers but I gotta say this) you could really feel God's presence there, and the words spoken were so perfect, and even though I still didn't have the money, I had a good night, and I got prayed for.... then after the meeting my roommates and I went to the prayer room and prayed some more, they prayed for me, and although the last few days I had been having doubts about the provision, I decided to just surrender all those doubts and just choose to believe that God would provide, and if I wasn't supposed to be here, that it would be because there was something better planned for me around the corner... So I felt like I needed to say that outloud, so I said I choose to trust, no matter what. (instead of being half-half about it and doubtful)
Then a few minutes later, a couple guys from our class came running in to the prayer room, and one of them said, "Guess what? I've got good news. I got my funds, you got yours, everyone who was still short got all their money!" An anonymous person gave the amount owed for the 5 or 6 students who didn't have their money, and I'm not sure what the total amount was..... the other day it was $7800, but last night I think it was about 5-6 thousand dollars. (my part was around 1400 bucks) Praise God! :w00t: :D :) :cool: Things like this happen ALL THE TIME here, and it has happened to me before, yet I still had doubts, but what a waste of time the worrying and doubts were. What everyone said was true, if God wants you to do something, then even if you don't have the money, it's not an issue, because money is nothing to God.
So that's my lesson in trust, and so I'm excited... cause even though I don't have any money for next quarter (the final 3 months of this class) I know that if i'm supposed to continue on, that somehow it'll come!
The other day at our fundraiser, with all the money in the box, we found a little piece of paper with a scripture on it, that someone had put in. This is what is said...
He will feed his flock like a shepherd.
He will carry the lambs in his arms,
holding them close to his heart.
~ Isaiah 40:11
Thanks for reading! :)