Rayney
01-26-2006, 09:54 AM
My parents have just driven 3 hours to get to my brother. They arent sure where he is...we cant get in contact with him.
He called me earlier tonight and he was drunk, as usual when he calls me...and as usual he talked a lot of ****. He was also going on about that he loves me, but he doesnt care about anything anymore etc. He told me when he hung up he was going to try and get himself checked into a clinic. Also as usual most of the things he was saying had me in tears.
About an hour or so after we talked and I was calmer the phone rang again and it was him...he mumbled some crap into the phone about calling on someone for help if I needed it, and I cant recall the name he said...it started with M I am sure. When I asked him what he was going on about, he just said goodbye and hung up on me. I rang his house and his mobile phone a number of times an dcouldnt get him, and then I tried my parents and couldnt get them, so I rung around until I found them and by then I was extrememly hysterical. My mother told me they would drive straight to see him. I think I terrified my mother - i was screaming and crying about not being able to get him.
I just feel like i dont know what to do. Should I be there? Do I put my entire life on hold while he does this over and over again?
I feel like Im going crazy. I feel like nothings normal and its never going to be normal. I find myself terrified to answer the phone because today might be the day the person on the end tells me that my brother has killed himself.
He called me earlier tonight and he was drunk, as usual when he calls me...and as usual he talked a lot of ****. He was also going on about that he loves me, but he doesnt care about anything anymore etc. He told me when he hung up he was going to try and get himself checked into a clinic. Also as usual most of the things he was saying had me in tears.
About an hour or so after we talked and I was calmer the phone rang again and it was him...he mumbled some crap into the phone about calling on someone for help if I needed it, and I cant recall the name he said...it started with M I am sure. When I asked him what he was going on about, he just said goodbye and hung up on me. I rang his house and his mobile phone a number of times an dcouldnt get him, and then I tried my parents and couldnt get them, so I rung around until I found them and by then I was extrememly hysterical. My mother told me they would drive straight to see him. I think I terrified my mother - i was screaming and crying about not being able to get him.
I just feel like i dont know what to do. Should I be there? Do I put my entire life on hold while he does this over and over again?
I feel like Im going crazy. I feel like nothings normal and its never going to be normal. I find myself terrified to answer the phone because today might be the day the person on the end tells me that my brother has killed himself.