Even before the whole thing with my little cousin being in the hospital, I've been just sad in general, for no particular reason. I haven't wanted to have Jess over or go over to her house, or do pretty much anything that includes being around people other than my mom and Ama.
I was feeling bad about always turning Jess down, though, so we worked it out so that she could come over this past weekend. I wasn't particularly excited, but once she got here I felt so much happier. Then she left, and everything got ten times worse than before. I was way sadder than I've been for a long time, and I couldn't do anything about it. I couldn't even get on DA, because our phone was screwed up and so my dad disconnected the internet for while he's trying to fix it.
So, until we had to go to visit Zeb in the hospital yesterday, I had mostly been staying in my room, and still am most of the time (except now we have the internet again, so I'll be in the living room more often). At one point it got so bad that I took some of this medicine, hoping it would help (one of the things it's supposed to relieve is irritability--since that's the only thing I needed it for, I only took half of the normal dose). It helped enough so that I could fall asleep for the night, but I still woke up once or twice crying.
The thing that pisses me off is that I've got NOTHING to be sad about. There are some people who's lives are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay worse than my own, and they don't mope around the way I do. They deal with it and move on. And then I, with internet service and a roof over my head and plenty of food in the fridge, act like the world is ending.

:bang:

13 is a tough age for almost everyone, and you may have a mild depression going on. I think you're supposed ot feel lousy at one point or another when you're 13 (just kidding, but sometimes it seems that way.).Winter weather doesn't help either, and less exposure to sunlight can definitely make it worse.

You could also have some hormonal issues going on that you're completely unaware of. That can definitely cause the blues. I had a testosterone deficiency becuase of some medication I was taking, and my mood was really screwed up. I got the testosterone replacement, and within a few days I felt great.

I don't really know what's going through your mind, or in your life , but I can tell you that it's highly likely that whatever you're going through is temporary. Remember that, and remind yourself as often as necessary.

Oh, and don't worry about others who have it worse. even if they do, what you're feeling still sucks, so don't feel guilty about it. If I got my left leg cut off, I would be really thnkful that I still had my right leg, but the fact that I got my right one cut of would still raelly suck, so don't go beating yurself up about other people, or anything else for that matter.

Also, and I don't want to sound religious, because I'm not; at least not in the traditional sense. Anyway, in the Bible, it says to "take every thought captive". In other words, when you feel those bad thoughts coming on, you can control them to an extent, by choosing not to let it mbuild up and make you feel worse. I never believed this until I tried it, and it does work; not as a magic, instant cure, but in a therapeautic way, as you get into the habit of doing it. Just tell yourself that it's only a FEELING. Now feelings are important, but if we let them control us (and we all do at one time or another), they can feed upon themselves and make us feel worse and worse.

Another thing is to distract yourself. You said that when your friend came over, you felt better. That was a distraction, and any healthy distraction can do wonders. If you have someone you cxan open up to, that you can really trust, it's always good to talk things out. If you can't, writing it down helps too. Just getting things out can be a big help.

Vigorous exercise is a good therapy for the blues. I would google the subject, and see how much you would have to do to get some benefit.

One last thing. Believe it or not, choclate can elevate your mood. It raises dopamine levels in the brain. Dopamine is an endorphin, which is a "feel good" chemical, and stimulates the pleasure centers of the brain. I'm not saying to sit down and eat 20 pounds of choclate, but in small doses, it really can help depression.

Oh, and I don't know what meds you're taking, but PLEASE, be careful with those psychotropic drugs. They can be a great help, but they can also do more harm than good in some cases. I wouldn't trust a doctor who writes scrips without trying to find the root cause of whatever it is you're going through.

I hope some of this info helps, and I hope you feel better very soon.
Hang in there. You WILL live, and you'll be happy again!!

13 is a tough age for almost everyone, and you may have a mild depression going on. I think you're supposed ot feel lousy at one point or another when you're 13 (just kidding, but sometimes it seems that way.).Winter weather doesn't help either, and less exposure to sunlight can definitely make it worse.
Wtf is sunlight? :eek7:


:p ;)

You could also have some hormonal issues going on that you're completely unaware of. That can definitely cause the blues. I had a testosterone deficiency becuase of some medication I was taking, and my mood was really screwed up. I got the testosterone replacement, and within a few days I felt great.
It could have alot to do with hormones; I have to take BC for medical reasons, so on top of the hormones I have to deal with anyway, I have to put more of those little bastards into my body every night. :p

I don't really know what's going through your mind, or in your life , but I can tell you that it's highly likely that whatever you're going through is temporary. Remember that, and remind yourself as often as necessary.
Everyone says that, and I try to think that, but I've been like this on and off for about a year, so I'm losing my patients. :p

Oh, and don't worry about others who have it worse. even if they do, what you're feeling still sucks, so don't feel guilty about it. If I got my left leg cut off, I would be really thnkful that I still had my right leg, but the fact that I got my right one cut of would still raelly suck, so don't go beating yurself up about other people, or anything else for that matter.
But being your own personal punching bag is fun! :eek:


;)


Another thing is to distract yourself. You said that when your friend came over, you felt better. That was a distraction, and any healthy distraction can do wonders. If you have someone you cxan open up to, that you can really trust, it's always good to talk things out. If you can't, writing it down helps too. Just getting things out can be a big help.
I used to have someone I confided in constantly, but they hate me now. :hmm: :p


One last thing. Believe it or not, choclate can elevate your mood. It raises dopamine levels in the brain. Dopamine is an endorphin, which is a "feel good" chemical, and stimulates the pleasure centers of the brain. I'm not saying to sit down and eat 20 pounds of choclate, but in small doses, it really can help depression.
Believe me, I eat PLENTY of chocolate. :p It does mellow me out somewhat, when I'm really REALLY upset.

Oh, and I don't know what meds you're taking, but PLEASE, be careful with those psychotropic drugs. They can be a great help, but they can also do more harm than good in some cases. I wouldn't trust a doctor who writes scrips without trying to find the root cause of whatever it is you're going through.
Don't worry; I know, what I said sounded totally bad....I probably shouldn't of bothered saying anything. It's not even an over-the-counter medicine; it's.....um...:| well, it's called Pamprin. :|

I hope some of this info helps, and I hope you feel better very soon.
Hang in there. You WILL live, and you'll be happy again!!
Thanks. :) It doesn't seem that way right now, but I know I'll live. :p

Thank you. You've always given good advice and you seem like a really nice person. :)