Spazola
01-13-2006, 11:34 AM
I'm going to use this thread to write letters to people, ones that I don't intend to send to them. I originally had the idea that I wanted to write a letter to my uncle Kris, but decided that what I want to put in it is probably too mean and/or disrespectful to actually give it to him. I want to write it anyway, though. Maybe I'll still give it to him, if I can soften it up a bit.
Dear Kris,
I went to go visit your son a few days ago. Koby's beautiful, and so smart. He learns words almost as soon as you say them to him, and talking to him is like having a conversation with an older child. I love him with all my heart--every time I've had to leave him, I haven't been able to restrain myself from crying.
It's too bad he learned his cousin's name before "Daddy" ever entered his mind.
You're probably thinking right now, "What does she know about being a parent?", and the truth is, I know nothing. I only know what it's like to be rejected by a parent, and that's exactly what you're doing to Koby. You're rejecting him. Oh, sure, it's fine now, he doesn't know the difference. So just relax, have fun destroying yourself with chemicles, you don't have to worry about adult responsibilities....never mind that you're supposedly a 24-year-old man (though I have a difficult time believing this), as long as Daddy pays for everything you're good to go.
I can't tell you what to do, but I can tell you what's going to happen if you continue your drug-filled life and rejecting your son. Koby is smart; it won't be long until he realizes that, unlike the families on TV, unlike the kids at the park, he doesn't have a father. You grew up always having your father there, so I don't expect you to understand how deep the wound goes when you're father hates you. But that's what you're doing to Koby.
I don't know for sure; Koby could be stronger than I am. He could understand that you're the ass, and that it has nothing to do with him. He may never experience the unbelievable urge to leave this world, or the pain of self hate. But even if he does avoid all this, there's always going to be this hole; wondering who he really is. You can never quite understand who you are if you can't figure out who your parents are. Luckily, your actions won't define who he is, but they will make it harder for him to understand.
So, you have a choice; you could get into a rehab and stop your self-destructive drug abuse (which is also hurting the whole family, believe it or not), and form a relationship with your child. You don't have to like Allison to love Koby. Or, you could continue with whatever life suits you, and risk being this innocent child's source of depression forever.
I might deserve the relationship I have with my own father; I don't know. All I know is how bad it hurts, and that Koby doesn't deserve this at all.
But, as long as you're happy, who gives a **** if you're destroying your son?
Your loving niece,
Jessi
Dear Kris,
I went to go visit your son a few days ago. Koby's beautiful, and so smart. He learns words almost as soon as you say them to him, and talking to him is like having a conversation with an older child. I love him with all my heart--every time I've had to leave him, I haven't been able to restrain myself from crying.
It's too bad he learned his cousin's name before "Daddy" ever entered his mind.
You're probably thinking right now, "What does she know about being a parent?", and the truth is, I know nothing. I only know what it's like to be rejected by a parent, and that's exactly what you're doing to Koby. You're rejecting him. Oh, sure, it's fine now, he doesn't know the difference. So just relax, have fun destroying yourself with chemicles, you don't have to worry about adult responsibilities....never mind that you're supposedly a 24-year-old man (though I have a difficult time believing this), as long as Daddy pays for everything you're good to go.
I can't tell you what to do, but I can tell you what's going to happen if you continue your drug-filled life and rejecting your son. Koby is smart; it won't be long until he realizes that, unlike the families on TV, unlike the kids at the park, he doesn't have a father. You grew up always having your father there, so I don't expect you to understand how deep the wound goes when you're father hates you. But that's what you're doing to Koby.
I don't know for sure; Koby could be stronger than I am. He could understand that you're the ass, and that it has nothing to do with him. He may never experience the unbelievable urge to leave this world, or the pain of self hate. But even if he does avoid all this, there's always going to be this hole; wondering who he really is. You can never quite understand who you are if you can't figure out who your parents are. Luckily, your actions won't define who he is, but they will make it harder for him to understand.
So, you have a choice; you could get into a rehab and stop your self-destructive drug abuse (which is also hurting the whole family, believe it or not), and form a relationship with your child. You don't have to like Allison to love Koby. Or, you could continue with whatever life suits you, and risk being this innocent child's source of depression forever.
I might deserve the relationship I have with my own father; I don't know. All I know is how bad it hurts, and that Koby doesn't deserve this at all.
But, as long as you're happy, who gives a **** if you're destroying your son?
Your loving niece,
Jessi