It's weird. I think I have a crush on this girl. She's attractive and all that, but I don't find myself being attracted to her. I don't want to kiss her, or hold her, or be intimate with her. I want to talk to her. I want to have a conversation with her. I can't even shake her hand or give her a hug like I can anyone else when I say goodbye. Then again, I think that she wouldn't appreciate those things. It's really getting to me. I don't know how I feel about her, and frankly, I want to tell her these things, but there never seems to be an appropriate moment. I don't think an appropriate moment could exist. I know she's not interested in me, and I can accept that, I suppose, but I feel uncomfortable when she expresses concern or anything else like that for me. She doesn't trust me, but she wants me to trust her. I don't have the courage to just tell her that I want her to trust me. I want to be able to be these things for her. I figure that if I can be these things for her, then I can then be these things for others.

I don't know. This is a new experience for me. For the first time in my life, I want to be with someone who does not want to be with me, and I am finding that simply to be unacceptable.

The prey which you stalk & eventually overrun is much sweeter than the prey which simply falls into your hands.
It's the thrill of the chase...

I still wonder that because there is nothing physical there, do I really have the kinds of feelings that I think I have for her?

Maybe the forbidden fruit looks succulent, but in truth, it has no essence.

I don't think I've ever had more than a physical attraction for anyone before, so I'm not sure how to take this. We'll see.