Ema
11-20-2005, 07:46 PM
I hate you
Summer days and long sleeved shirts
Filthy children covered in dirt
Nothing’s ever good enough
And I’m never tough enough
From you all I ever wanted
Was for my dreams to cease being haunted
And to feel love once again
To feel something within
I hate you
I am so numb
To everything you do
To everything I will become
I love you
Because I need you here with me
I love you
Because you make me see
You make me see who I really want to be
I am beautiful standing in the light
I am beautiful, but what an ugly sight
Bloody legs now exposed
For the world to see what happens behind doors that are closed
Never again will I hide in shame
Never again will I play his game
I’m free now, ready to heal
But long after my bruises are gone I have yet to feel
I hate you
I am so numb
To everything you do
To everything I will become
But
I love you
Because I need you here with me
I love you
Because you make me see
You make me see who I really want to be
It’s over now
But I still don’t know how
I got this far
With all these scars
He was a part of me
He was what I meant to be
But every night we were alone
No one could have ever known
I hate you
I am so numb
To everything you do
To everything I will become
But I love you
Because I need you here with me
I love you
Because you make me see
You make me see who I really want to be
I hate you
I am so numb
To everything you do
To everything I will become
But I love you
I need you
I want you
But you’re not here with me
And I’ll never let you close again
Because now I really see
That I can never win
I hate you
And everything you do
Everything you did to me
Because now I really see
Summer days and long sleeved shirts
Filthy children covered in dirt
Nothing’s ever good enough
And I’m never tough enough
From you all I ever wanted
Was for my dreams to cease being haunted
And to feel love once again
To feel something within
I hate you
I am so numb
To everything you do
To everything I will become
I love you
Because I need you here with me
I love you
Because you make me see
You make me see who I really want to be
I am beautiful standing in the light
I am beautiful, but what an ugly sight
Bloody legs now exposed
For the world to see what happens behind doors that are closed
Never again will I hide in shame
Never again will I play his game
I’m free now, ready to heal
But long after my bruises are gone I have yet to feel
I hate you
I am so numb
To everything you do
To everything I will become
But
I love you
Because I need you here with me
I love you
Because you make me see
You make me see who I really want to be
It’s over now
But I still don’t know how
I got this far
With all these scars
He was a part of me
He was what I meant to be
But every night we were alone
No one could have ever known
I hate you
I am so numb
To everything you do
To everything I will become
But I love you
Because I need you here with me
I love you
Because you make me see
You make me see who I really want to be
I hate you
I am so numb
To everything you do
To everything I will become
But I love you
I need you
I want you
But you’re not here with me
And I’ll never let you close again
Because now I really see
That I can never win
I hate you
And everything you do
Everything you did to me
Because now I really see