I just realized something rather profound...

I will probably never be truly happy, because I am never satisfied.

Whether it be in a relationship, with my job, with money, with anything. The grass is always greener on the other side.

I look at my life now, I live in a good home, I have a good job, I’m healthy, my family is healthy. I have great friends, everything is good in my life, but I’m just content with everything. Not truly happy. I always want more. I want a bigger house, a better job that pays more, I’m healthy but I can always find something wrong with me, my family is bizarre.

And yet, I know if I got a bigger house, I wouldn’t be satisfied. I’d want an even bigger house.

I’d love to think there will be a time in my life where I can look at everything and say “I have everything I want, there’s nothing more that I need”. I don’t think that’ll ever happen though. :(