Einstein defines insanity as attempting the same action while expecting different results each time. Why, then, am I bothering with things I know won't work out? "Let's just be friends" didn't work last time, I don't know why I thought it would work this time. And it's not working for the same reasons. She signs on, sends me an IM saying "hi" and then says "brb" and proceeds to go quiet for 40+ minutes before signing off. "Brb" my ass, that's a frikkin' goodbye. And I'm keeping myself occupied, so she says "brb" and I expect that it means she'll let me know when she's back and wants to talk more. What am I missing? *sigh*

*holds face in hand* I dunno, maybe it's that I've moved on already, faster than I expected to, and it's coloring my vision. Maybe it's that this time, since the split was a mutual decision and it felt right I'm not having to look back (in anger or otherwise). It could ba an infinie number of things, I just don't know...and I'm not surre that I care anymore.



IN OTHER NEWS:
I'm beginning to finalize plans for the protest this weekend here in Pittsburgh. What I'm going to do, where I'll be, with whom, and all that jazz. It's gonna be fun. :)

Also, I've partially figured out what I'm going to do for my directing scene (I'll put it in a separate thread). As I learn more over the next week, it'll get more fleshed out, but it's gonna be cool and I have a great idea for a transition between the two halves.

My mother went in for another preventive surgery today, outpatient, in-n-out, she's fine. Chemo starts soon. Oh, and in the oddly hyper state I was in earlier today I replied to an e-mail from my cousin with a really really long e-mail that took me not that long to write. I even put in the e-mail that I probably sounded like a four-year-old child because I was so hyper.

That's about it, the rest is stuff that I'd rather keep personal so that those who I don't think need to see it don't have to.

I'm gonna go crash early tonight. It's only 2:07 a.m. I can actually get 5+ hrs. of sleep if I'm good.

Thank you, and goodnight!

Haha

I read this at 2:09 my time between homework assignments.

Ah this aspect of college sucks. *Reads her Bible assignment, and then will move onto History*

NOTE: It's now 4:07 and I'm still up. Guess that didn't work so well after all...

Originally posted by Stage Monster
Einstein defines insanity as attempting the same action while expecting different results each time. Why, then, am I bothering with things I know won't work out? "Let's just be friends" didn't work last time, I don't know why I thought it would work this time. And it's not working for the same reasons. She signs on, sends me an IM saying "hi" and then says "brb" and proceeds to go quiet for 40+ minutes before signing off. "Brb" my ass, that's a frikkin' goodbye. And I'm keeping myself occupied, so she says "brb" and I expect that it means she'll let me know when she's back and wants to talk more. What am I missing? *sigh*



wellll... i think you're definitely on to something-- especially with the Einstein idea-- can't go wrong with him

but maybe the problem isnt that you're bothering with something that you know "won't work out." (or maybe you are- only you know whether or not it will work out-- or at least, your guess is way better than anyone elses) BUT, i wouldnt give up on that until you do one thing-- try redefining the friendship-- or maybe defining it for the first time. if this is what happened last time and is happening again, it may sound like Einstein's insanity definition, but if you're going by that, why not do what he would do-- Stop letting history repeat itself.

*shrug*

Originally posted by BonnieBon


wellll... i think you're definitely on to something-- especially with the Einstein idea-- can't go wrong with him

but maybe the problem isnt that you're bothering with something that you know "won't work out." (or maybe you are- only you know whether or not it will work out-- or at least, your guess is way better than anyone elses) BUT, i wouldnt give up on that until you do one thing-- try redefining the friendship-- or maybe defining it for the first time. if this is what happened last time and is happening again, it may sound like Einstein's insanity definition, but if you're going by that, why not do what he would do-- Stop letting history repeat itself.

*shrug*


Can we make her title DA Therapist? YOU ROCK BONNIE! Mad props! Oh...and don't forget the lipgloss. ;)