I can honestly tell all of you that from about 7:30, 8:00 last night till about 3:30 today I spent time with someone I hope to one day consider my best friend. Alan is a wonderful person who only deserves the best. I am not the best he can get and he and everyone else knows that. But I do hope that he considers me a good friend to him also. Alan knows more about me than anyone else in my life and he knows what my next move will be most of the time. I am a really bad person sometimes but I am trying to figure out who I want to be and bring out more of the good person. I just want to be cared for and Alan has always been there no matter what was going on and no matter what it might cause to go wrong in his life. Maybe I take advantage of that sometimes... but I really don't mean to. I do love him in a special way and I know that he loves me in a special way too. Alan is someone that deserves to be loved by someone who doesn't want anything in life but him. If I don't become that person one day I really hope he finds that. Alan... I do care about you... and I hope the people on this site don't hate me for the mistakes I have made. Alan and I are different and we always will be... understand?

well sweetie don't worry, whatever happens is meant to be..

I think that's a little extreme.. I mean when we were at Wal-Mart I felt like all I did was cry.. it's not b/c of stacy, just things in general.. but one day at a time.. if we do end up being nothing, atleast we have good memories..