I mean, a real epiphany. An instance where the way you view the world, (and yourself, especially for me), is so fundamentally chenged that you feel that a hundred pounds has been suddenly lifted off your back. You find youerself smiling constantly, for no real reason, when for your entire life you have been a textbook dour-ass sourpuss, seeing the bad in everything? This big transformation for me has been going on for a few weeks, and is a big reason I've been pretty much totally absent from the board. It seems it all culminated tonight.

I wish I had the attention span to explain it all. I don't. Feel free to email or pm if you're intrigued :D Just wanted to share.

Anyone i've offended as of late due to my weird, pissy moods and the things I've posted becuase of them, my apologies. Nic recently, and Ian from a couple months back, specifically. (And if that doesn't tell you that I'm not in my right mind, nothing will :D.)

And my name is Craig, BTW. Not sure if anyone of you guys whom I've been discussing, arguing, & flaming with for months in some case and years in others, even knew that.

:D Life has gotten just so damn interesting. Just a damn shame I had to waste 30 years of life to get to this point.

Or maybe I'll get up tomorrow after the liquor's worn off, and utterly refute everything I've just said as drunken nonsense. Hope not.

Its a crazy game we play, this life. But sometimes, it is very fun.

its not drunken nonsense, unless of course I am about to spew NyQuil induced nonsense. But ever since I came back from Burning Man, I have seen the world a bit differently. I am a bit more socially open, have regained my faith in the human race as a whole, and I am really beginning to really like Canadia and Canadians.

There is nothing like seeing honest friendliness and an absolutley honest willingness to help and share with strangers to change your outlook.

Yeah, I sure have had one! It came via a TV show of all things too... The short version of the story is I have an Ex girlfriend that left me TOTALLY devastated when we broke up. Part of me still felt depressed over it for years...

Then one night I was watching an episode of "Angel" (the Buffy The Vampire Slayer spin-off). It was about a season ago when the bad guys had brought his ex-girlfriend back to life, and together they nearly drove the guy nuts. When he finally hit rock bottom though, he realized that he'd been placing WAY too much importance on his trying to "save" her. Once he realized he wasn't going to change the past or save thee world that way, he was back to his old self and told her to take a hike or he'd stake her -LMAO! (She was a Vamp too).

ANYWAY, by the time he got done with his tirade to her about all this, I felt like I'd gotten smacked in the face with board!!! I'd been viewing my relationship with that Ex the same way. Yeah, at one point, I was head over heeels for the girl, but that sure wasn't gonna change my world in and of itself...

It was a MAJOR reality check for me!:eek:


Not a time in my life I like talking about at all, but maybe that story will help someone else out there...

I've felt that way a few times but it didn't last long..

Craig that is great man!

Like CA, I've had those moments, but I never think they are 'true' epiphanies because they wear off so god damn quickly. :-)

But it is an amazing thing, being able to see and think clearly, and have the world baiscally defined...understanding it.

And don't think the past 30 years have been wasted...the past 30 years have been building to get you to where you are now!

I am intrigued! please share with us whats been going on!

yes, I have had a few. Oddly enough, I think realizing what the hell I was thinking about when I was high, gave me to an epiphany.

Well, it is not exactly rainbows & roses like I made out, more like ash and pitch. The feeling that some great burden is gone, comes from finally reaching the point of not giving a damn what people think anymore.

The "nice guy" goes through an ever-repeating cycle. He gives people his best, whether friends, lovers, whatever. Because of his reliability and dependability, his best is not so much appreciated but often expected, sometimes demanded, and always taken for granted. In return for his best, he may receive an occasional scrap, like a stray dog. Or, more often, he will have it thrown back into his face like it were garbage. The nice guy will lick his wounds, move on, and claim that he has finally learned his lesson. And he'll claim that he'll never make those same mistakes again. Until the next time, that is.

But, for a lot of guys, at some point, the next time becomes one time too many.

I may muse more later. When I'm on, consider me D Durden's delinquent little brother. Subtract most of the humor, and add about 2 quarts of bile. My attention span has just been too damn short lately.

Originally posted by SmilingJack
its not drunken nonsense, unless of course I am about to spew NyQuil induced nonsense. But ever since I came back from Burning Man, I have seen the world a bit differently. I am a bit more socially open, have regained my faith in the human race as a whole, and I am really beginning to really like Canadia and Canadians.

There is nothing like seeing honest friendliness and an absolutley honest willingness to help and share with strangers to change your outlook.

Yea i think things like burning man reveal the sort of excitement, wonder, and security of community that is lacking in so many peoples lives. Id have to say Libertatia had a similar effect on me. Too bad people dont behave the way they do in those autonomous zones on year round basis.