i want to work on my novel right now--- i've really progressed with my writing from the classes im taking right now--especially narrative writing-- its sooo fun. but im having writers block... i dont want to skip ahead..but i need to figure out a transition into what comes next... uck...

i've been avoiding writing my novel for a while because then i end up getting really introspective and i've been doing too much of that

way too much

and what realization has that brought me? :
I'm just a kid...
i mean, 'i'm an adult in some respects-- i'm mature for my age-- i've honestly had my fair share of life experiences....other than not falling in love or any other (romantic) relationship stuff---but that'll come...

but whatever stuff i've already learned in my 20 years... i'm in way over my head...
there are wounds that i can't heal--but still recall.., .... i'm not allowed to observe any kind of faith the way i want to-- speaking of which... i really dont know what i want to-- i mean, i'm a Christian in terms of beliefs-- and I am Jewish in some terms--mostly culturally... but..i'm just so far out of my comfort zone on this one-- and the friends(from church) that are probably not really going to be a part of my life anymore-- i understand now how much those friendships didnt/couldnt work for me...but i know that new friends arent going to just come out of thin air...

I had to learn how to cope on my own with pretty much everything-- and i mean, i had some pretty sh**** experiences during my early teen years...but i got through somehow..which is great, i guess... but i think it kept me from learning how to let people be there for me... and the church friends were great--and theyre great people..and in pushing those people out of my life-- i feel like im putting myself back in that position of dealing with everything on my own-

anyways... dont mind me.. i may sound dramatic but i'm really okay-- i mean, i'm frustrated as hell right now..but still... i'm doing well.. i just dont want to be doing well alone...

Rough spot... I saw some advice somewhere for getting past creative blocks. As soon as I find it, I'll pass it on.

All wounds heal given enough time & faith (in both yourself & God). Trust me, I know. As for your search for a spiritual identity, just keep true to what you believe inside while exploring both sides of the coin would be my advice. It's the same God anyway, right?;) You'll be on your own & free to make your own choices soon enough anyway. Who knows, you may even end up blending it together some, like some Kabbalahists do.

Beyond that, you could look at what I told Wedge re his spiritual journey, although I'm not sure if any of it will help you.

Originally posted by Prometheus
Rough spot... I saw some advice somewhere for getting past creative blocks. As soon as I find it, I'll pass it on.

All wounds heal given enough time & faith (in both yourself & God). Trust me, I know. As for your search for a spiritual identity, just keep true to what you believe inside while exploring both sides of the coin would be my advice. It's the same God anyway, right?;) You'll be on your own & free to make your own choices soon enough anyway. Who knows, you may even end up blending it together some, like some Kabbalahists do.

Beyond that, you could look at what I told Wedge re his spiritual journey, although I'm not sure if any of it will help you.

hmm--the blending together sounds great in theory but i have a feeling it would just give an even bigger feeling of separation from people with different values... one thing i've learned about myself this year is that i despise labels... seriously..

as for the wound thing.. yeah, things do heal... but just like if it was an actual physical wound.. it may heal, but once it's all better it may be "different" from before...like..not the way you remember it being/looking/feeling

i'm probably making no sense here...but anyways...
a lot of people talk about healing by forgetting things that have happened or simply 'moving on" and i dont think i agree with that

i tend to think tht the things you go trhough become a part of who you are.. and you can --for the most part-- decide if its going to impact you in a positive way or a negatvei way...

hmm.. i really dont have a point here... so... yeah.. i'm gonna go try to write now

Well, you might be surprised how much the values overlap in most cases, but I certainly understand & respect where you're coming from.

Hang in there & keep doing what you think is best.:)

actually.. i tend to be on the opposite end--- so many times people will have it out over something they are SO close to agreeing on.. and all you can do is just stand by and shake your head at it...

i think the values completely overlap

actually i dont think using values was a good choice of words on my part-- other people's values dont make me feel isolated from them....but when people are so adament about giving themselves a label--- that i think is what sets people apart from one another-- not always but sometimes...

okay-- i need to end this break im taking from my writing.. i broke the last "writers block" and added another 3/4 of a page....i think once i struggle through another page or two i'll be able to have a nice 10 page binge-- that'd rock :)

Jesus...


she's my friend and all...

i've known her for quite some time...

i was her councelor at camp bravo..


but SHIT...she needs to DROP THE DRAMA!

OK, I stayed out of here to let you write last night... Now where were we?:)

First off, yeah I'd agree that the values at least almost completely overlap. With enough study, you find that's true of the majority of the world's belief systems. Beyond that, it's largely in the details... Reincarnation vs Paradise, etc...

I know what you mean about people & being closed minded and intolerant regarding their values too. It's a pretty big turn off for me & just about anyone else too. All I can say there is to remember those people are only a small part of the overall 'organized religion' scene. There are plenty of others out there who are respectful & tolerant of different ways of looking at the same picture.;)