I'm starting to not like the technological age. I'm starting to not like the purpose of it all.

Some things I do see as very useful and beneficial but other areas of the technological age that I once participated greatly in I'm now starting to frown apon.

The internet. It can be used for so many things. You can obtain a great amount of knowledge by a simple mouse click. No matter what it is you're looking for somewhere out there you can find it. You can use several resources. You can book flights, buy tickets, check stocks, pay bills, etc. without leaving your home.

When I first started out on the internet my interest was not at all in any of these. My interest wasn't in how I could benefit from the internet and the resourcefulness of it all. My main interest was the interaction between people. That's what I fell in love with.

The only reason I ever started using the internet and got into computers was to chat. To meet people. To comunicate. To corespond. I did this for four years of my life with people all over the world. Eventually I learned the functions of computers and I'm thankful that I'm as knowledgable as I am today. But I really had no interest on-line other than to 'chat'.

Things changed and for two years I was off the computer. I recently returned to the computer and noticed that my perspective on chatting has changed. I once thought before that when you communicated with someone that you weren't just an object.

Anyways the way I see things now are weird. When I chat with someone now I'm very picky and selective. I keep my "Buddy lists" to a minimum and only message when neccessary. I only write to friends and families that I know in real life. On IRC I only like to query people I'm somewhat comfortable with. I don't know what caused this change.

In watching other people I see how they can throw so much of themselves out there. Expecting for everyone on the other end to care, and feel for them, and to think unobjectively about them. I don't communicate with people very often because I can't do that. I can't throw my feelings out there for people to examine, and I can't attract attention to myself like that. Especially when it's all over the computer. And I see everyone saying "Love you" and "care about you" even if as friends, is it real? And what if it's not returned? I've seen the vulnerable lead to believe what's not true, and the deprived get what they'll never have.

I know what caused this train of thought. I guess I let my gaurd down and was left feeling like an object.

Anyways. I think chat should be avoided more often. That's why I'm a reader.

heapin pile o' :bs:

I kind of know how you feel. The only person on my MSN is my mother. The only reason she's there is because when I delete her she just comes right back. :D Oh well, she's "Mom" so I don't get mad about it. It's pretty rare that I chat with anyone online. I prefer face-to-face conversation, but that's not always possible.

I originally got on the net for porn. That got boring quick and I ended up on different sites like this. The person you see here is pretty much the real me. Pretty much.

I won't pretend to care about you because I think you're too wise. I know you simply as Lateralis, and with my luck you probably have no idea who I am. I guess we're all just names in cyberspace. We can create an identity with a few strokes of the keys.

Somehow I don't think you put this up for people to respond to. I think it's intended for one person. Hopefully you can work out your differences. That much I do care about.

All I know about you is that you're married to Katalina and you're very sexually adventerous.

No this was not intended for one person. I know who you're referencing (PissyPrincess and Illiana when they had their journal dispute). This is just my journal and I was venting about how inpersonal chatting really is and about how people don't realize it. :)

I thank you for calling me wise, it's always appreciated when people can recognize the positive aspects of my character via text! :D

I know who you're referencing (PissyPrincess and Illiana when they had their journal dispute).
DOH!!! You are correct. My apologies to them. :(

Sexually adventurous? Me? :p Come on, let me see your "Oh" face!:eek:

Hey Lat :)

I can agree with you in a sense. 'Tis why I hang out in car channels. The slutty me me me me kind usually never get attention and usually always get called out.

Granted, I dig chattin', but I usually chat with people I already know.

The more chicks I chat with on IRC the more I realize why I don't like most females... they're airheads. :p

Cristina-

Originally posted by Lateralis
I know what caused this train of thought. I guess I let my gaurd down and was left feeling like an object.


So expand on this statement please. How did you let your gaurd down? And with whom?

What did they do to make you think this way?

What server do you log onto IRC? And what channel do you go to?

Originally posted by buggy
Hey Lat :)

I can agree with you in a sense. 'Tis why I hang out in car channels. The slutty me me me me kind usually never get attention and usually always get called out.

Granted, I dig chattin', but I usually chat with people I already know.

The more chicks I chat with on IRC the more I realize why I don't like most females... they're airheads. :p

Cristina-

Hey, you chat with me on IRC and I'm a chic! What are you trying to say? :mad: :p :cool:

Originally posted by 93-Cobra


So expand on this statement please. How did you let your gaurd down? And with whom?

What did they do to make you think this way?

What server do you log onto IRC? And what channel do you go to?

It's rather hard to explain. In the first post I said I don't like to throw all my stuff out there, and I especially don't want to seem like I'm on some pity-parade. Maybe I just cared? But caring is silly.

Anyways. Undernet. #houston pand0ra- That's pand0ra with a zero. It used to be pand0ra but some f*ck stole it and won't give it back.