I generally despise people. Yet,as I look at my life, I realize I have spent the majority of my life trying to help people. I encourage those around me to make this a better place. In the meantime I loathe the people I deal with every day. I think most people should be exterminated. How ****ed up is that? I find myself dedicated to helping those that I despise. WTF?

Maybe you secretly believe in karma and hope that through kind deeds the kindness will spread and the world will become a better place?

Either that or you're messed up in the head. Kind of a toss-up on this one.

the man inside is better than the man outside. theres a really decent chap trying to escape that cynical shell-and i DO believe that

The question you should ask is what does the loathing of the people around you accomplish for you? Does it make you feel better or worse? Is there any value to work toward letting go of the anger?

Maya Angelou says that bitterness is like a cancer. It feeds upon the host and does nothing to it's intended target.

(That's not to say I don't often feel the same way, with some frequency. I do feel better in letting go, though. Maybe this could help you as well.)

You're a reluctant do-gooder with the guise of a misanthrope?

I generally despise people. Yet,as I look at my life, I realize I have spent the majority of my life trying to help people. I encourage those around me to make this a better place. In the meantime I loathe the people I deal with every day. I think most people should be exterminated. How ****ed up is that? I find myself dedicated to helping those that I despise. WTF?

Truthfully I lost faith in humanity long ago. Problem is that I am human too. :hmm:

i was in health care and i saw people do incredibly awful things to themselves and each other just out of stupidity..no way ill judge JW-i wish i could give him some peace-i struggle with the same thing and obviously tom does too-you feel like giving up some times..but its part of who you are..

Maybe it's like back in the middle ages where those people would walk around whipping themselves. Purification through pain wasn't it?

When people do stupid things, even when they hurt me, I try to pity them rather than hate them. There are reasons for which people do stupid things. The reasons are usually stupid, too, but that's just how life is. You can't make the world un-stupid.