Talk about a ****ing roller coaster.
FRIDAY:Okay, so I get convinced to go ahead and go out Friday night to a Halloween party all the way across town. I had invited the chic from class to come along, but didn't think anything of it. Then the girl I was supposed to go with (just friends, we go way back, and she bats for the other team) cancelled on me. So I decide to go anyway because I haven't partied with those guys in forever. So, I'm on my way and the girl from school calls and asks if its still cool for her to go. I say, hell, I'll pick you up. :) So now I'm totally ****ing stoked. Pick her up, we get there and start doing shots. We're getting real friendly, then she disappears for a minute and comes back and asks if its cool if her boyfriend comes. I'm thinking "wtf?" but it was a big party so I say sure why not. So we do a few more shots, my friends give her bf bad directions (love those guys) :) so we're just hangin out and then her bf shows up. not too long after she says "I'm really wasted and need to lay down." I say I'll talk to the host and find a place for her. Her bf turns to me and says, "yeah, why don't you take her and put her to bed." :eek7: Um, did I just hear you right? wtf? Well, if you insist...so I take her upstairs and into a bedroom. I lay down with her and we start talking/playin/making out etc. Nothing too heavy. I'm thinking its weird but whatever. So, her bf then comes into the room and starts talking to us. Then he's like, "Oh, so ya'll are just gonna pass out together? Cool. I'm going back to the party." Then she asks him to come lay with her, and I agree and say I'll just go downstairs. So he says "No, you take care of her and I'll get her in awhile." :eek7: So he leaves, and at this point I turn to her and I'm like WTF?! So we start talking about it, and she's pretty evasive. So I say to myself, **** it, not my issue. We start making out. Just as I get her shirt completely undone, her bf comes in again , stays for about 3 minutes (the lights are off, and he has no idea she's half-naked) and leaves again. So I'm getting highly annoyed. So she turns to me, and we start playing agian. I think whatever. So just as we start moving to the next level she giggles and says something about her bf wouldn't appreciate this. So that was it. I get up and say I'm going back to the party, and that she needs to just go to sleep. So I go back downstairs shaking my head in disbelief...

So I come downstairs and start talking my friends about what happened. Trying to sort it out in my head and reassure myself that I've done the right thing. Then I start flirting with this totally hot chic. Then she starts flirting with me.:) I was going to divulge some details, but I'll just say that we had a good time until the host's gf decided we needed to leave because...well I'm not even sure why, but anyway, so while I'm dealing with the host and shit I turn around and she's gone. :( Didn't even get her number. Totally sucked in a awesome kind of way. :hmm: So, by the time I find my way home, its after 4am. I have to go to work.

Saturday:So I run by the store on the way to work and buy a cheesecake to share with my daughter at the station during the day. Saturday was her 9th birthday. Hangovers starting so I get my buddy to hook me up with an IV. Drag ass through the day until my ex-wife brings my kiddo up to have cake with me at about 2. While we're having cake she tells me that my parents are visiting my grandmother who's in the hospital again, so they can't do dinner tonight with my kiddo. Well, that's the first I'd heard of it so I'm pretty annoyed. After they leave I call my mom to find out wtf is going on. They tell me she's stopped eating and had pneumonia. Great, so I tell her when I get off in the morning I'll come up there (other side of Houston) to see her. She says don't worry about it, they'll call me if anything changes. So we keep making runs and working and then she calls at 8 and tells me that they wanted to put my grandma on a respirator, but my family wasn't go to allow it because that's what she wanted. So they put her on a BiPAP machine, that basically pressurizes your lungs to help you breathe, but doesn't breathe for you. They say that I should go ahead and come out when I get off at 6:30 in the morning. So I keep working and the they call me at midnight and say that she isn't going to make it through the night. So I have to wake up my boss and tell him I hafta leave. So I get that straight and hop in my truck and drive an hour across town (still having not been to bed, and a wee bit hungover). So I finally get there (still in uniform) and find her room and can tell that it definitely won't be much longer. My family says they haven't really been told anything and get elected to find out what is actually going on, because they don't really understand what little bit the nurses have told them. So, I talk to the nurse and she's very helpful and gives me the chart and gives me the rundown. Her blood gases are crap, but they'll check them again in a couple of hours. So I let the family know and they seem okay with it. A little while later when they check her gases again, they're even worse. Basically her lungs aren't working anymore but her brain is still telling her to breathe. So I relay this to my Dad and the rest (its actually his mom) and they ask me what I think they should do. So, I have to say that she's not coming back, that at this point even if her lungs somehow magically started functioning again that her brain would be damaged anyway. Well, the decided to leave the mask (for the BiPAP) on her until she quits. So I go to the waiting room and lay on the floor for awhile. Oh yeah, and there are about 30 people there from my family. We've taken over the whole waiting room. I lay on the floor, and next thing I know my aunt is over me crying saying that she's so sorry they didn't come wake me up. They pulled her mask off and she stopped breathing immediately after. I realized that I'd been asleep about 2 hours. So, then dealing with the drama of everyone freaking afterwards sucked. I've never really understood how that works. They knew she was going, but are still "shocked" when it actually happens. Maybe I've just been a medic too long. Seen it too many times. Don't know, I really kinda feel like a calloused bastard...

Oh yeah, somewhere in there it got to be Sunday. I got my mom to drive me home so I could make it in one piece. Then my ex brought my daughter over so I could tell her. They weren't close or anything but she was still upset. So then I took a little nap while she watched Hannah Montana. Now she's in bed and I should be too. Its funny how coming her always kinda helps me sort out my head...

Sorry to hear about your grandma, jwreck. You just give that daughter a great big hug, OK?

Sorry to hear about your grandma, jwreck. You just give that daughter a great big hug, OK?Will do. Thanks man. :)