I got up on the wrong side of bed today. I'm managing to be civil and work and stuff, but everytime someone says something to me or I answer the phone, I'm thinkig in my head, "shut the f up and leave me alone."

Perhaps this is a symptom of working all weekend? I took on a second job working on a movie for no pay in order to get in the door with the producers. It's a good move, I'm glad I'm doing it, and I don't even mind the work, but not having a day off in 3 or 4 weeks kind of sucks.

Perhaps it's that I got laid on saturday night and while it was really great sex and I enjoy it a lot, I'm really tired of not caring too much about the girls I sleep with. I was talking to a friend about that this morning. I just can't find a girl worth keeping. I mean I LIKE these girls, but they're not the kind that I would really involve in my life in a relationship. I honestly have only met one girl in the last 3 years that I would want to be my girlfriend. Maybe I'm too picky.

Perhaps it's that my very good friend asked me to borrow money and for a ride one too many times yesterday. He doesn't have a car and isn't working much at the moment, so he's in need and I'm happy to help friends in need, but lately it seems like he may be inviting me out mostly because he needs someone to buy him a beer and get him home. I'm dissapointed in him for asking so much of me in that way, and I'm dissapointed in myself for thinking of it in those terms.

At any rate, while I'm not exactly unhappy at the moment, I would be happy at home watching a movie I rented instead of working, dealing with people, and thinking my thoughts.

Well, piss off...LOL I haven't had my coffee yet today, either... The wife let it run out, and hasn't gone to the store yet... Thinking of mass murder.... ccccooooooffffffeeeeee.........

I think you'll find someone someday. You're smart, funny, kind, talented, and handsome -- some girl will be lucky to snag you. It sucks waiting for it to happen, but I'm pretty sure it will. And I don't think that's being overly sentimental or optimistic either. I used to think that everyone only had one soul mate out there -- and it was our job to find that person and love them for the rest of our lives. But I don't think that's necessarily the case anymore. I think there are probably several different people out there that we have the potential to be happy with -- it's just a matter of connecting with that person at the right time. But we kinda talked about that yesterday I guess.

At any rate, it sucks to see you so down. I hope you woke up on the right side of the bed this morning.

Originally posted by Allegra
At any rate, it sucks to see you so down. I hope you woke up on the right side of the bed this morning.
Eh, yeah, I'm in a better mood today, thank you. Even though I got more of the sex last night with yet another non-girlfriend type. Who would have thought I'd be complaining about getting laid. :p

Originally posted by igofast

Eh, yeah, I'm in a better mood today, thank you. Even though I got more of the sex last night with yet another non-girlfriend type. Who would have thought I'd be complaining about getting laid. :p

Ha ha. Well, that's more than most of us probably got last night! Hey, at least you're not limited to getting it on with your right hand man -- if you know what I mean. ;)