i had so many things i wanted to discuss with you. it seems understanding comes from not understanding!

the search requires that one not search!

oh! all these things! my head is in a whirlwind!

understanding does not come through WORDS, but through sound, smell, touch, taste, and sight!

understanding comes from having had and then not had and had then not had!

understanding lacks words, emotions... the NOT in all things!

i wanted to hear your voice, see your face and hands and THEN i would understand! then to not have these same things, because thats where understanding lies.

teh exact opposite of what we THINK we need. the understanding comes from NOT thinking. NOT touching, tasting, smelling, seeing, and hearing!

imagine that!

the understanding comes from having had then not had. had then not had and so on.

i want. i dont want. i want. i dont want. i need. i dont need.



haHA!