So, I'm going to be fifteen in five days. :eek: And in two more weeks, I'll be able to go and take the test for my driving permit. :D

Drivers Ed has been okay...REALLY boring, but yesterday I got to sit with an old friend of mine and we're talking and stuff now, she might be coming to my birthday party. ^_^

I'm not sure if I ever did post about how the thing with Burr ended up--in the end he disowned me; he said that the only other person that could write a letter like I did was Satan himself, that I was mean and rude and disrespectful and that he was fed up with me and that he would never contact me again. :p

He said all this, only to play mind games with me later--he had my aunt Samantha randomly ask if I liked the DDR game he got me for Christmas. O.o So either he wants ME to feel guilty because HE disowned ME, or he just doesn't want me to forget about him (like I could forget OR feel more bad than I already do).

Meh...:P I'm not feeling too great today.

Sorry to read this, Spaz. Being more mature than a grown man is something cool though. :nice:

Dont feel bad,Sugar-everybody gets frustrated with their teenaged children-you know we got our own hormonal garbage going on too-not that Burr is all sunshine and eclairs...;)
btw youre not Satan-I know that awful person-youre way more pleasant...

This is more than just being frusterated with me FM...

These are from the last letter I recieved from him:


The only other person that can take a letter written with pain in the heart just trying to open communications and Know just a little even if it is give me more time, and turn it into a torturous dramanization from lucifer himself.


I have never intentionally done or said anything to hurt you. But I am at my witts end and will not take it anymore. I am fed up especially with the way your mother has turned you so against me.


So leave it at that and I will never write, call or bother you again.

And I know how your mom thinks, so if she decides that she needs to bring childsupport into this and try to sue me for future or back wages, that will be fine, however I will sue that you have to come visit me (rather you want to or not) Every or Every other Weekend and for the Entire Summer while school is out.

Maybe you want me to be mean so you don't feel as bad hating me. Good Luck and Good Bye.

Offer him a wah-burger with a side of french cries. This is the reality of being a father. At least you're not a Baldwin kid. :hmm:

Sucks tho. *hugs*

This is more than just being frusterated with me FM...

These are from the last letter I recieved from him:

it's not much meaner than other stuff youve posted-he's a loser-sorry,Sweety-i didnt get great parents either-Mom has mellowed some thank God-she's really sweet sometimes-some of us dont get the award winnng sit com parents-it's ok-you'll have a strength and a readiness and an independence these little ninnies can never have.I see signs of that already-you're top drawer material Sweety. not Buttsack at all-that crazy Ryan lol...

I think Buttsack is supposed to be an honorary name...XD

Offer him a wah-burger with a side of french cries. This is the reality of being a father. At least you're not a Baldwin kid. :hmm:

Sucks tho. *hugs*
*hugs* Thanks. ^^

What's a Baldwin kid? O.o

I think Buttsack is supposed to be an honorary name...XD


*hugs* Thanks. ^^

What's a Baldwin kid? O.o
Baldwin kid:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/18220258/

I went through something similar with my parents when I was your age, so I can sympathize. My dad used to call my phone (before the days of cell phones, it was cool to have a seperate phone line in your bedroom) from the mental hospital and try to get me to reunite the family after he tried to commit suicide. :nice:
PM me if you ever need to talk. ^_^

hes a mean man.

Gaaah...I feel even worse now...

He sent me $100 for my birthday. :( I know it's a weird thing to be upset about, but I don't know what to do now...now it seems even more like I'm the ungrateful, bitchy daughter who refuses to talk to her poor, cripple father, but he still sends her cards and what not, even after the way she treated him...

:P

Gaaah...I feel even worse now...

He sent me $100 for my birthday. :( I know it's a weird thing to be upset about, but I don't know what to do now...now it seems even more like I'm the ungrateful, bitchy daughter who refuses to talk to her poor, cripple father, but he still sends her cards and what not, even after the way she treated him...

:P

that aint the way it is-dont worry about what things look like; your nerves will appreciate it...

send him a thankyou note. then he will feel guilty.

I might do just that...I don't know though...I just want this to be over with.

Why can't he make up his f'ing mind? Either be in my life or leave me the hell alone, don't weave in and out like this. :P

he wouldnt get it oki-he needs to see her for waht she really is=a person that deserves a lot more respect

true.

I might do just that...I don't know though...I just want this to be over with.

Why can't he make up his f'ing mind? Either be in my life or leave me the hell alone, don't weave in and out like this. :P

he wont make up his mind-it looks like he still doesnt want to accept the responsibility of having a daughter-if you can be strong and accept this weakness and vacillation you'll heal from a lot of these wounds-i know that's a lot to ask-unfortunately noone can really tell anyone to be good and rational-it just doesnt work...

If the money bothers you, send it back. Your dignity is worth more than $100.

If the money bothers you, send it back. Your dignity is worth more than $100.

you know-it IS,but 100 bucks is a lot for a young person=she should keep it and send a letter saying "so you didnt have time to pick anything out for me?"

I prefer direct approaches, really. I would send an email say something like; first you disown me, now you send me money, why?

youre right oki-thats better

you know-it IS,but 100 bucks is a lot for a young person=she should keep it and send a letter saying "so you didnt have time to pick anything out for me?"
I understand that $100 is a lot of money, hell it's a lot to me. But, this is a destructive relationship, and he's messing with her head. To establish a boundary with manipulative people is hard to do, and sending back the money, that I have no doubt she could really use, sends a strong message that her affection, time, and dignity aren't for sale.
My parents used to throw money at a problem in the hopes of fixing it. It was only when I stopped accepting this method as a way of demonstrating love that we were ever able to make any progress.
The truth of the matter is that Spaz has to decide for herself how to handle this situation, because ultimately, she's the one that has to live with it. I can't imagine how confused you must feel, Spaz, and I hope that whatever you decide to do in this decision, you'll find happiness and peace. :)

Thanks Siason. <3

My initial reaction was to send it back--card and all. But at this point I think I'm more pissed off than hurt...and I'm not going to let him get me as upset as he did for nothing. I'm determined to turn this into something happy. I refuse to let myself cry as much as I did over this for nothing. I'm going to blow most of it on all sorts of stuff I've been wishing I had to money to buy, then spend the rest on getting my mom a kick ass Mother's Day present. :nice:

The ironic thing about this...about ten minutes before I saw and opened the card, my mom had given me $15 because I was going to the mall with a friend. And it made my day! I didn't expect to have any money when I went--and I'm pretty sure that she couldn't even REALLY afford to give me the money. So one minute I'm super happy with $15 from my mom and dad, then Burr sends me $100 and I start crying. :p

you should enjoy that money-dont even worry about that guy.

Thanks Siason. <3

My initial reaction was to send it back--card and all. But at this point I think I'm more pissed off than hurt...and I'm not going to let him get me as upset as he did for nothing. I'm determined to turn this into something happy. I refuse to let myself cry as much as I did over this for nothing. I'm going to blow most of it on all sorts of stuff I've been wishing I had to money to buy, then spend the rest on getting my mom a kick ass Mother's Day present. :nice:

The ironic thing about this...about ten minutes before I saw and opened the card, my mom had given me $15 because I was going to the mall with a friend. And it made my day! I didn't expect to have any money when I went--and I'm pretty sure that she couldn't even REALLY afford to give me the money. So one minute I'm super happy with $15 from my mom and dad, then Burr sends me $100 and I start crying. :p
I hear that. I've been there with my parents, so I can sort of sympathize. It sounds like he's still trying to be in control, when the truth of the matter is that you can set the terms for someone being in your life. Once you realize you have that power, grownups sort of panic because they don't have control anymore. Do what you feel is best for you in the moment you're in, and be well.